My Performance Review
I had my performance review by my boss this week.
Let's just say that it brought up something that I already know about myself at work (that sometimes when under stress I 'share' that with other people in ways that make them feel uncomfortable). I tend to be like that at home, too, sometimes.
It's one of my worst traits, if not my worst.
Even though I knew it was true, I didn't like hearing it. But it's for the best.
The other thing my boss mentioned is that I could "think more like a manager" more often which was interesting since I often *do* think like a manager but I don't always share that with her. You can be sure I will do that more often.
However, she is grooming me for a position I don't even know that I really want. Really. I feel a mid-life crisis coming on and I don't turn 40 for another 2 months!
The good news is the rest of the 90 minutes of my performance review were about how wonderful, gracious, efficient, smart, etc. I am. So that is always nice to hear. Always.
Sometimes I feel like I have a long list of ways I want to improve myself. I think I'll make a list of those things and put them next to a list of the things I already do pretty well.
Then I'll post them on my blog. Then I'll really have reason to kick some ass and get going on some self-improvement!
Here's a start:
Things I want to do to improve myself:
1) act less like a harpie when I'm under stress
2) stop eating when I'm just bored
3) slow down--stop hurrying around every minute of the day
4) simply my life in steps (step one: clean out my closet)
Things I love about myself:
1) I like to make Christmas and birthday gifts rather than buy them (it's on my brain lately)
2) I feel confident in my life, balancing work, motherhood and wifedom
3) I am funny and I like to use humor at work to lighten the load for everyone
4) I have a great relationship with my parents and siblings and cherish that so very much
That wasn't so hard!
Paring It Down
October was a complicated month for me. I had too much going on. I really want to simply my life. I need to move from wanting to simplify it to actually doing it. Details, details.
I want to simply by getting rid of a lot of stuff and clutter. My tentative plan is to take some 1/2 days off in the next 6 months and de-clutter rooms in our house one at a time.
I wish I had done this over the summer and just had a giant yard sale, but last summer was the summer of painting and we painted several rooms. The beautiful colors will help get me through another gray Michigan winter, so that is no small thing.
I need to have a plan. I need to stick to it. I need to figure out what to do and just do it.
To keep it simple. (sigh).
I've already started doing this in small ways, like not renewing one of our weekly magazines because I don't enjoy it anymore and it creates clutter and another thing to do.
Maybe I should make a "winter to do list" like I made my summer to do list and did pretty well with that.